Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I'm already marked for Assassination.

Somebody forgot to logout of her gmail account before she left our apartment. You know who I am.

Love love.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Le sigh

I hate not having real internet on a regular basis or a computer that only lasts maybe an hour when it actually does charge. I can't even regular check up on the blogs I read.

I want/need to get back to blogging. I miss it so.

Friday, March 12, 2010

What happened?

My pictures from my previous post have pulled a houdini. Oh no! Well if you're curious as to what they looked like click on that post's title for a link to the website.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Beautiful Ar Direction by creative director and makeup artist Adriana Gerasimova


Let me take a moment to say: "Yay! 100th post!"

Anyway, so its so amusing to see how idiotic people can be. I'm a very eclectic person, not matter if its movies, music, books, or even people. While I've been known to go through phases where I'll stick to one genre, I'm pretty much into everything. So it annoys me when someone tries to label me without seeing the whole picture.

The Boss is trying to revamp the office and one of the things is having music playing in the lobby area. Now I'm not a big fan of that because the music could be very distracting. But, hey, I only work here. And for two more weeks at that. So I decided if they're going to be music playing, that it might as well be something I enjoy, while also appropriate for work. Last night I decided to put on Depeche Mode. Its music that fit the mood for it being late and nothing really going on, yet still had a good beat going. So one of the assistants after a while calls me emo because I listen to Depeche Mode. Really? You've decided to categorize and label me as one specific genre based on one band that I decided to play. Completely ignoring that I played Wolf Parade, Radiohead, and Taking Back Sunday earlier. Also ignoring that Depeche Mod is really more of a gothic/early industrial band than "emo". He tried to call them a forerunner of Emo when that title should more so go to The Cure if you're going to try and look at how the genre came to be what it is.

I find him to be very childish and its easy to ignore him, but I find it annoying that people label based on very little information. Its ridiculous. And I'm not saying that that I don't do it myself. Though I do try to get all the facts when I can. I hate when people judge me because of random shit and not knowing the whole picture and I try to not do that to others. But people like this guy just get to me with their three-year-old mentality of everything is black and white and there couldn't possible be any other way. Le sigh.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Catching up

Well, I haven't really put anything about my life up in the past couple of days as I have:
  1. Not had the mental energy
  2. I feel awkward writing about certain things at work because I always feel like someone is looking over my shoulder.
So, I want to play a little catch up to let everyone in the know and hopefully I'll go into more detail in upcoming posts.

  • I've been annoyed that my Boss had said back in October/November that as part of "teaching"part of our internship he would have us meet with a couple of people in the business. After that we never heard about it again. Not even a whisper. So I finally got the balls (especially after to talking to Lauren from Hipstercrite) to talk to one of the other manager about meeting some of his clients. So far I've meet two of the three that I talked about and playing email tag with the other as he is very busy. I feel so satisfied that I finally did something for myself instead of trying to wait for the Boss for fulfill empty promises. And while of the topic of work...
  • Two mangers that I really liked (thankfully not the one that helped me to get meetings) got fired last week. The first Monday night after everyone left work the other of Friday. I loved them both. They were great people and great managers. I'm so thankful that I'm only here for another 2 weeks or it would be truly weird having to work without either of them here. The office feels so empty both in physical sense and of good energy. I most favorite I hope to keep in contact with. Especially since he would give me a good word depending on were I'll be working once I graduate or maybe make to move out to LA and work for him or for wherever he works next.
  • And the last point on work. So last week I got my final paycheck for work. The amount was more that I thought it was suppose to be but I wasn't going to say anything. But unfortunately I got call yesterday from the accountant saying that I had to write them back a check for the amount that I wasn't suppose to receive . Dammit! I wish there was a way for me to get out of having to give the money back. I have been so broke with the little that I'm being paid vs living costs. So much I wanted to do while I was out here on this coast and I couldn't because I barely had money to feed myself after paying rent, let alone wanting to do something fun. Plus the fact that I was doing 50 hr work weeks meant that I couldn't really have a part time job. I really want to see how long I can put it off. C'est la vie.
  • And the most amazing thing that has happened, I've saved for last. So I ran out of cigarettes about 11 days ago and have somehow haven't had a cigarette since. I don't think I've ever gone that long without one. Even when I was trying to quit (or atleast tried to smoke less). I wont declare this my "I've stopped smoking!". Especially since I'm patiently waiting for Big's friend to give me a case of Djarum Blacks. Big was so sweet to think of me to get his friend to do that. Maybe if I can learn to pace myself I can got back to smoking Blacks and every couple of months either have some get me Blacks or go and get them myself. Nice excuse for a road trip.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Beauty Recycled

While browsing io9 this morning I came across this wonder piece of art by Sayaka Kajita Ganz. Sayaka is an artist that was born in Japan but now lives in Indiana. She made the sculptures above as well at several other pieces made out of random pieces of plastic junk. Objects as simple as parts from action figures or a plastic mixing spoon can be combined to create such a wonder works of art. Here is a closer look at a piece called "Sparkle".

I wish these pieces were in a gallery that closer to where I am so I could go visit them. Oh well.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Can I just lay down my head?

I feel unwell enough to not want to go into work. But, I know I'm not really sick enough. I guess I can hope to be overcome with nausea at some point. I already feel part of the way there.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Last Night

The lengths to which someone will try and force me to buy them alcohol (especially with no gain for myself) just astounds me. Icing on the cake when it includes 2 fake calls to the police to try and scare me in a situation to do what he wants. And the jackassery to refuse to let me leave on my own terms and scare tactics that result in a lot of bullshit. And people dared to ever call me an alcoholic or selfish?

Friday, February 12, 2010

Damn hunger

While I realize that I'm making somewhat less money out here then I was in Philly I have still come to conclusion that effort to eat 3 square meals a day has made me broker then usual. This just sucks.

My mother's logic boggles my mind

I have known my mother for going on 21 years. One would think that with that amount of experience, I would be able to make heads or tails of what goes through her mind. As of yet: not a fucking clue. Here is that latest battle between my mother and I.

In making preparations for moving to LA for my internship, I had to give up my homely apartment in Powelton Village. My mother wouldn't be able to help keep up on the rent and she didn't want to let me sublet. And while I was (and still am) very against it, my mother said that when I returned to Philly, I would have to live at home for at least Spring Term (and possibly Summer Term) and then I could move back into University City. I hated the idea because (a. I want no part of living with my mother and (b. having to get back and forth from North Philly to campus/work will be a pain in the ass.

But, there was also another stipulation to to moving back into UC: my mother wanted me to move in with Asia, my "best friend". While I love Asia and we would probably get along. I'm still much for living by myself. We have a lot in common but for the past year Asia has been living in her sorority house. I am not one to say that all sorority sisters are evil sluts, but I just don't find that much weight behind those types of groups. And for the last year while I've lived off campus and she in the house, we have become centered around different things. So I not to sure what type of relationship we will have if we were to live with each other.

But my mother is persistent. She wants me to live with Asia because she likes her and thinks that should be the be all end all. This is completely disregarding how I feel on the matter. But whatever, she's my mother and she feel's privileged that she can do that.

I caved in and tentatively agreed to live with Asia. And recently a friend of ours wants out on the apartment she's in now and would like to live with us. I'm actually more comfortable with this because then it means that I'm not just one-on-one with another person. And we got together earlier in the week to discuss what we wanted in and apartment. I found a place that was well located, had my favorite style (exposed brick ftw), and very well priced. Only $500 and its 4 bedrooms so if it came to be that we could grab a 4th person, all the better.

But Asia isn't sure she can pay $500 a month plus gas and electric. And she can't tell me how much she thinks she can save a month with what she's making now at Chilis as a Hostess/Busser. So I'm stuck, going well the chance of finding a place that's even cheaper than that and in a neighborhood the UC that we want is going to be damn near impossible (trust me I looked). And on top of that, I'm trying to find places and I'm 3000 miles away. Asia hasn't come to me with any places and she's still in the area. Tara hasn't either, but she just agreed to live with us so I can see why not.

Annoyed I call my mother because she's so desperate for me to live with her golden child and she doesn't even know if she can pay rent. My mother's response "I'll talk with Asia." Talk to her about what? If she can't pay rent or try and figure out something what could my mother possibly do? If any mention of my mother helping Asia out with rent is mention I'll scream. That's the only possible solution that could be offered. My mother can help my Asia pay rent then why couldn't she agree to help me live by myself? Especially since I have said more than once that once I get back to work I'll being putting money towards paying for me to live by myself. But, as always she screams back "I can't afford for you to live by yourself". I can't wait to see how this plays out.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Fun times in the rain

What a wonderful day with it pouring outside. Its wet and messy, but it would still be more fun walking around out there then just staying still inside. I feel like I'm going to atrophy.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The beginning of the end

So tonight marks the beginning of the final season of LOST. I'm both happy and sad. We've come so far and now it is time for us to tie up all the loose ends. I'll miss you when its all over.


Le Sigh

Well it looks as if I will need to cut my apple cleanse to two days instead of three. I went to Whole Foods last night and they didn't have any Granny Smith apples. When I went to the Whole Foods I usually go to they had Granny Smith apples, but only ones in packs of five and there weren't many left. An abundance of Golden Delicious and what ever the red ones are called, but not my lovable green Granny Smith.

True, I don't have to eat Granny Smith, but I prefer then and I'd rather not be miserable having to eat apples I don't particularly enjoy. And two days are acceptable according to the sites I was reading before I started. The normal time limit is usually two to three days. I planning on doing three and maybe trying to make it to four but alas, twas not to be. This is something I'll probably be doing on a semi regular basis so there will be more opportunities to reach the goal that I want.

The most intense things happen I'm away

While surfing facebook this morning I stumble upon an article that a former co-worker of mine posted. It seems that the general manager at the Chili's I worked at was arrested for sexually abusing a 13-year-old girl. Sexual abuse that has reportedly been going on for the last 2 years. Needless to say my jaw hit the floor. It wasn't that this guy didn't give off a creeper/perv vibe (trust me, he gave it off in abundance). It's the fact that not only did he sexually assault someone, but it was a 13-year-old girl for Christ's sake. What could have possibly motivated him to do so? And what I really want to know is if it was one of his wife's kids (maybe even his own?) or was it a kid in the neighborhood. Guess I'll have to wait and see.

Monday, February 1, 2010

PETA Needs to Sit Down and STFU

In Wake of threats, Johnny Weir Goes From Fox to Faux

So this morning I read this article about how figure skater Johnny Weir was receiving death threats for adding fur to his free skate costume. PETA, of course, are claiming that they only formally addressed the issue by sending and open letter to Weir and his costume designer. But considering how radical PETA has been in the past, it wouldn't surprise me that though they didn't have any "official" handling with the death death threats, that they aren't condemning those actions.

Johnny more than likely would have kept the fur on his costume had there only been the formal complaint. He states in the article that he just wanted be keep focused on his skating and not be fearful that someone would harm him or try to ruin his chances of Olympic gold. He also states that this isn't a win for PETA as it hasn't turned him away from wearing fur.

For him, I think it was the right decision to make. It wasn't a part of the original costume so it isn't as if it would e a big deal to take it off. It isn't the costume that is important, but his performance. One figure skater isn't going to bring down PETA and he realizes this. I'm glad he at least had the guts to say that he will continue to wear fur, even if it wouldn't be for this situation.

I don't get these people, officially affiliated with PETA or not, that feel the need to threaten someone's life because the wear fur, eat meat, etc. You made the decision to be the way you are. No one who who doesn't share your beliefs aren't hurting you, especially a figure skater who you have never met. So why do you feel the need to not only threaten but threaten that person's life for the sake of your beliefs? You're completely mental. How you you like it if someone were to threaten to force you to eat meat and wear animal skins under pain of death? Wouldn't be to happy about that, right? So why the fuck do you think you can get on your high horse and do that to someone else?

Boggles my mind.


So today I'm beginning the process of my personal overhaul. And the moment I'm working on the physical. I've never been happy with the fact that with no matter how much exercise or activity I do, while I might slim down, I never seem to get very solid. And even though I slim down it never really seems to make a difference over all. It is so frustrating having one day where I'm mildly happy about myself and then the next day, or even a couple of hours late I go back to thinking I look like shit. So I am once again attempting to rectify the situation.

For the next three days I will be on an apple cleanse. The rules are that I have to adhere to are:
  1. Drink lots and lots of water
  2. Eat apples and only apples
  3. If I feel they need to have something other than water I can have unsweetened green tea
This is a lot simpler and a lot easier than going on the master cleanse. The master cleanse take a lot of time and work to complete. It is just something that I can't accomplish with the type of environment that I'm in now. And the MC was a pain in the ass over all. So this is like taking baby steps towards being able to do the master cleanse.

The point is to clean out my system as much as possible and rebuild my system so that it doesn't try to break down on me so often. And I'm hoping it will give me more energy to work out and to do things in general.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Over Haul

So I completely hate the fat that I don't write on here as much as I use to. After my mother so crudely made it known to me that she found my blog (after googling me for her "scrapbook") and proceeded in criticizing me on the things that I've done, I kind of got frightened away. While, yes, my blog is public and it not very difficult to find, I still feel as if a line has been crossed. The idea of my mother googling my is fairly weird. I don't care why she was doing it. If my mother wanted to scrapbook certain things about me, when didn't she just ask for them? There isn't really that much about me on the internet.

But whatever, she found my blog and decided to read it. Fine. What I don't understand is why she needed to bring it up to me, especially the way that she did. The gist of what happened is I was going to be going on a date and she mentioned that she hoped he didn't think that I was a virgin (I had never told my mother that I had had sex) and then condescendingly asked why I had slept with one particular person. I don't shit on her for having slept with my father therefore she has no room to talk about me and who I choose to sleep with.

So I've stayed away for the most part with a post hear and there. Even though the initial weirdness dissipated, I had no gotten out of the habit and just could get in to writing. But I want to come back. I miss posting and I find that it helps a lot in getting my thoughts out into the universe. Here's hoping the I'm here to stay.

One of the things I'm hoping to do with this blog, while still have the random comment about my general life. I hope to be able to find a specific purpose for this blog and stick to it. My blog has had no direction and I feel that it really needs one. So I'll probably be trying out different things to see where it fits.

In other news, will I be starting my blog back up, I will also working on my overall being: physically, mentally, spiritually. I've never ever really been happy with myself for one reason or another. Always one thing or another. So, instead of just being constantly unhappy I'm goig to work bit by bit on making me a better me in order to make me a happy me.