Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I have always had these moments when I want feel what its like to be hit by a bus or train, shot, stab, or beaten to death. There were always thoughts of curiosity. But No they have become more frequent and more malicious in thought. What does this mean exactly? Am I truly depressed? Am I going insane? Have I been these things all along but for some reason able to keep them at bay? I don't know the answer to these questions and I'm not even sure I want to know the answers. I guess We'll see what life brings.